This has been too long coming. This is something that has been weighing on my mind. I get to a point in my life of not-writing and I go back into writing, I make myself write again. I return again to writing to fulfill a long-held desire to BE A WRITER, to WRITE and come to terms with this urge.

And every time I start writing again, I quickly get to a point where I need to go deeper into Writing, to become writing doing writing. I need to become a vessel, without ego. I have been journaling, reflecting and thinking through my days so far, but I need to break away from this self-awareness.

There's more inside. It's not good or bad. Judgment gets in the way at this stage, so I haven't reread anything from this latest batch of writing (except this little piece). Not good or bad, just more, so much more; there's more to be uncovered, unearthed, discovered.

I need to take my time and let myself fall into the physical act of writing, to let go of judgment. I feel the need to get lost in my writing in order to keep going for the long term. I need to go deeper to internalize the rhythm and inject writing into my pulse, my breath, my waking and sleeping, and my walking through the world.

I have always been a reader, and when I learned abut stories, I learned to be a writer before I knew how to write. Writing is a place I want to live in, a world I can't escape. I don't want to escape, I want to get lost in the forests.